I'm not, senpai. There's still a chance that Ginia is being tricked, or lied to. And I definitely think there's a lot of unknown factors, or even stuff the heavens aren't telling people. I'm going to be wary of all of that.
But I also got a sense of how she was feeling during that meeting. None of it made sense until she messaged me, but I still got a sense of her conviction.
I want to protect her, if nothing else. That may mean standing up to her on occasion or telling her she's wrong, I don't know yet. A god is responsible for their shinki, even if it means taking a stance they might not agree with.
Good, hearing you say all of that does relieve some fear, at least.
Still... this is a different sort of thing we're playing with, Yukine. An enemy that we can FIGHT, I have all the faith I can swing in and fight.
I know I can protect those important to me.
While I won't dismiss your ability to defend yourself, I would never, it still bears saying... Until I know these people here more, until I know what is going ON more, my greatest concerns are the likes of you or Elfnein.
That may well change. I expect many of the people here are much like us, and deserve that trust.
...but I don't know the extent of the power we're dealing with. How easy it would be to just be done with any of us should it be discovered people are working under the radar.
I don't know HOW to protect anyone here, be it you, or Elfnein, or anyone. Monsters like these ayakashi are one thing, but that does not seem to be the greatest danger.
Being that "sentinel" is the strongest thing I have to fall back on here, and that may not even be enough.
Quite honestly, that's terrifying.
So what I have left to fall back on is... I suppose, a certain level of paranoia. As long as I've been with S.O.N.G. through its various iterations, dealing with other countries, our secrets... I suppose I've picked up more than a few things there from Father or the Commander.
...I do not yet know how to even relate to my own shinki, but I suppose that will come in time.
I don't begrudge you any of that, senpai. You're still new here. Heck, technically, so am I, even if it feels like a lot longer now that I have my memories back.
Maybe I'm seeing too much of myself in this case. Ginia said something about kids being used, and I knew I couldn't turn my back on it.
But just know I'm gonna be trying to protect you too, senpai. We're in this together, same as always.
Of course, I understand completely why this would touch you personally, Yukine.
[Why do you think she's so concerned?]
I just want you to be careful. There may be little any of us can do against certain powers here, until we know more about them.
[Not to mention, if whatever brought them here has the power to make gods and shinki what they are, what's to say they don't have the power to easily unmake them? This is something that sits at the forefront of Tsubasa's mind.]
Do not mistake me, though. I know you'll do your best the same as I will to do that. I trust you in that.
Thank you, Yukine. At the least, it'll be better to confer and cross reference whatever information we might get while we're figuring things out before we know just how to act.
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Date: 2019-01-04 01:06 am (UTC)But I also got a sense of how she was feeling during that meeting. None of it made sense until she messaged me, but I still got a sense of her conviction.
I want to protect her, if nothing else. That may mean standing up to her on occasion or telling her she's wrong, I don't know yet. A god is responsible for their shinki, even if it means taking a stance they might not agree with.
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Date: 2019-01-04 07:45 am (UTC)Still... this is a different sort of thing we're playing with, Yukine. An enemy that we can FIGHT, I have all the faith I can swing in and fight.
I know I can protect those important to me.
While I won't dismiss your ability to defend yourself, I would never, it still bears saying... Until I know these people here more, until I know what is going ON more, my greatest concerns are the likes of you or Elfnein.
That may well change. I expect many of the people here are much like us, and deserve that trust.
...but I don't know the extent of the power we're dealing with. How easy it would be to just be done with any of us should it be discovered people are working under the radar.
I don't know HOW to protect anyone here, be it you, or Elfnein, or anyone. Monsters like these ayakashi are one thing, but that does not seem to be the greatest danger.
Being that "sentinel" is the strongest thing I have to fall back on here, and that may not even be enough.
Quite honestly, that's terrifying.
So what I have left to fall back on is... I suppose, a certain level of paranoia. As long as I've been with S.O.N.G. through its various iterations, dealing with other countries, our secrets... I suppose I've picked up more than a few things there from Father or the Commander.
...I do not yet know how to even relate to my own shinki, but I suppose that will come in time.
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Date: 2019-01-06 09:04 am (UTC)Maybe I'm seeing too much of myself in this case. Ginia said something about kids being used, and I knew I couldn't turn my back on it.
But just know I'm gonna be trying to protect you too, senpai. We're in this together, same as always.
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Date: 2019-01-06 06:02 pm (UTC)[Why do you think she's so concerned?]
I just want you to be careful. There may be little any of us can do against certain powers here, until we know more about them.
[Not to mention, if whatever brought them here has the power to make gods and shinki what they are, what's to say they don't have the power to easily unmake them? This is something that sits at the forefront of Tsubasa's mind.]
Do not mistake me, though. I know you'll do your best the same as I will to do that. I trust you in that.
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Date: 2019-01-07 01:14 am (UTC)I'll let you know if I found out any more, in any case.
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Date: 2019-01-07 08:23 am (UTC)Thank you, Yukine. At the least, it'll be better to confer and cross reference whatever information we might get while we're figuring things out before we know just how to act.
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Date: 2019-01-07 08:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-01-07 08:31 am (UTC)But I've spent more than enough time around Ogawa-san to have picked up a thing or two in that area, I believe.
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Date: 2019-01-07 08:49 am (UTC)I have some work to do, though, so I'll have to talk to you more later, senpai.